Last year I decided to get ready for Valentines day early, to make certain I was prepared I bought a card for my husband months in advance. As the special day approached I decorated the house in pink and red and purchased some small gifts for each member of our family. Valentines day came and we celebrated with a special dinner to boot!
At the end of the night after the kids were tucked into bed I approached my husband and said, "I noticed you didn't get me anything for Valentines Day." He confessed that he had forgotten. We bantered back and forth, me telling him how hurt I was and my dear Hubby saying he was sorry.
We both finally retreated. Hubby went to the store to buy me a Valentines day card. I retreated to the bathroom, where I locked the door and slunk down to the floor crying.
I heaved bitter tears and sent my laments up to God. I just couldn't understand why God would allow my broken orphaned heart to fall into the hands of a husband who would let me down.
I cried for God to show me I was loved.
When I was finished crying and praying I went into my bedroom to settle myself for the night. For some reason I picked up an old journal that I hadn't touched in years. I opened it up and there I found a Valentines Day card that my mother had given me 30 years prior to the day.
The card is a precious moments card which reads....Sew in Love Dear Valentine. On the inside my mother had penned....I adore my little March Flower Love, Mom
I don't know why I get surprised when God answers my prayers so quickly and directly. I guess that I have bought the lie for so long that I'm not loved and that I'll never be.
The truth is, God loves me and he loves you too! People will always let you down at one point in time or another but God will never let you down.
“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” John 13:34-35 NIV
Teach us to number our days,
that we may gain a heart of wisdom.Psalm 90:12
that we may gain a heart of wisdom.Psalm 90:12
For,“All people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, 1 Peter 1:24
I'm glad you found that love. From your story, husband loves you, too. Even after an exchange from which there was retreat, he showed his love by trying to make it right. Accept his offer of love, too. :)
ReplyDeleteYes, I love my Hubby:)VERY MUCH and He does loves me too! He did make it right and I thanked him for that. I also realized that I was putting pressure on him to provide the kind of love only God can give.
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