False Start

 

 

 

I have a plaque I keep in my home which reads. "If You Can't Be A Good Example You'll just have to serve as a horrible warning!" by, Catherine Aird 

 

I laughed when I saw it and knew I had to have it. It's been the story of my life.

 

I wish I could write in this blog about all of the mess ups I've been through and how God pulled me out of them.....OH WAIT!!! I am doing that! I wish I could sit here today and say it's all good, my problems are in the past. 

 

The truth is as long as I'm on planet earth

God's Call on My Life

When I was nine years old my mom died from breast cancer. The world I knew was blown away like a tornado ravaged city.

I spent seven years in a children's home. No one tucked me in at night. Gone were hugs & kisses that proved my worth. During those years I came to know God as my Father. Physically I was well cared for but my heart was grieved.

When I was 17 I graduated from high school and set out into the world. Tucked inside my heart I had wisdom that my mother left with me before she died.

"Alison, Love God with all your heart and soul. Don't have sex before you are married and when you get married stay married forever."

I did not heed my mothers wisdom. I had sex before I was married which resulted in two abortions. I've been married three times and divorced twice. The one thing that I did get right was

My Favorite Valentine

My mom died when I was nine and one of the biggest impressions it made on my life was the idea of making your time on this earth count. Never miss an opportunity to express love.

Last year I decided to get ready for Valentines day early, to make certain I was prepared I bought a card for my husband months in advance. As the special day approached I decorated the house in pink and red and purchased some small gifts for each member of our family.  Valentines day came and we celebrated with a special dinner to boot!

At the end of the night after the kids were tucked into bed I approached my husband and said, "I noticed you didn't get me anything for Valentines Day."  He confessed that he had forgotten.  We bantered back and forth, me telling him how hurt I was and my dear Hubby saying he was sorry.

We both finally retreated. Hubby went to the store to buy me a Valentines day card. I retreated to the bathroom, where I locked the door and slunk down to the floor crying.
I heaved bitter tears and sent my laments up to God. I just couldn't understand why God would allow my broken orphaned heart to fall into the hands of a husband who would let me down.

I cried for God to show me I was loved.

When I was finished crying and praying I went into my bedroom to settle myself for the night. For some reason I picked up an old journal that I hadn't touched in years. I opened it up and there I found a Valentines Day card that my mother had given me 30 years prior to the day.

The card is a precious moments card which reads....Sew in Love Dear Valentine. On the inside my mother had penned....I adore my little March Flower Love, Mom

 

I don't know why I get surprised when God answers my prayers so quickly and directly. I guess that I have bought the lie for so long that I'm not loved and that I'll never be. 

 

The truth is, God loves me and he loves you too! People will always let you down at one point in time or another but God will never let you down.

 

 

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” John 13:34-35 NIV

 



 

Teach us to number our days,
that we may gain a heart of wisdom.Psalm 90:12

 

For,“All people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, 1 Peter 1:24

 

Orphan Defined

 

I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. John 14:18

or·phan

/ˈɔrfən/ Show Spelled [awr-fuhn] Show IPA

noun

1.

a child who has lost both parents through death, or, less commonly, one parent.

2.

a young animal that has been deserted by or has lost its mother.

3.

a person or thing that is without protective affiliation, sponsorship, etc.: The committee is an orphan of the previous administration.

 

adjective

4. 

bereft of parents.

5.

of or for orphans: an orphan home.

6.

not authorized, supported, or funded; not part of a system; isolated; abandoned: an orphan research project.

7.

lacking a commercial sponsor, an employer, etc.: orphan workers.